Can we skip the next round of insecurity, please? The first round still wreaks havoc on my soul from time to time.  No need to worry, friends; I’m good, really.  Just voicing in jest a slight annoyance that I have with my insecurities right now…and everyone else’s. This is not a test.

Why do people forget that I’m human? Capable of experiencing a hundred emotions all at once and projecting those feelings another hundred ways. So, I deal with them through faith; something different than a lot. It doesn’t make me any better. It doesn’t take the place of my lot. A girl. Far from perfect.  Struggling always with, why? Not me? Again.  Did I fall too far from the Pretty Tree? Not funny? Not smart? No personality?

Down with these evil insecurities! Seriously!? I know not one is true.

And yet, there I sit and see you write of insecurities with beauty too, is it so? Am I right? How could you possibly not know? Are you fishing for compliments? I’ll give them, I will. But why do I still spend time thinking of someone clearly standing still? Not wanting who I am. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow, perhaps? Or do they? Do I even want to go? There. I did.

Please, say what you want, but think about what you say. And what you don’t say. It matters either way. Speaks more volumes in the hidden questions that pile up along the way. Spilling into our hearts; taking up residence in any dark corner we’ve missed until we shine light with God’s truth upon the enemy of our souls.

Away with you, devil! You tell nothing but lies! I’m so tired of imagining unreal scenarios that waste nothing but time!

I will waste no more. Tonight at least. I’m bringing out my insecurity for all the world to see. Shedding light on my dark, because I don’t want it leaving a mark. I want abundant life that only one can give, and in Him there is only light, no darkness at all. It is truth! Truth to focus on; to steer away from insecurity.

I am awake; living free! Always knowing there is one that will mend my scraped knee. When I fall down. As I will continue to do. But stay I will not. I’ve finally brought it all back to where I should have taken it from the start. To my Savior. Light. Truth. No room for lies to grow.

Down with insecurity. Breeding fear. Driving freedom further away from people, when freedom is already here. Available only in your heart. The place we all need more light when we live in a world growing dark.