Here I sit, Awake on this earth.

Every day is a like battlefield.

Psalm 139 says “…search me, God and know my heart, know my anxious thoughts…”

My anxious thoughts?

Anxious ideas. Anxious words.

A culture of worry and divided minds.

Consumed by thoughts we won’t own.

Consumer mentality misplaced.

“I don’t like the taste of this, so I’ll drink from another.” When will we realize the body is worth more than a bank account and stop marrying it away to an idolatry of lust for things that cannot satisfy the soul? An impact far more eternal than a lowering credit score, yet even that we hold above our bodies and above God.

Is not our body sacred? It is. Spirit breathed breath of life. To foster life. Yet we are committed to nothing and drowning in wants. Seeking everything but the One true God who knit us together in our mother’s womb. Drew us out into this exact generation for a purpose greater than we could ever imagine!

A spiritual bankruptcy has snuck its way in through foxes and wolves of godless, pleasure seeking ideology. How many eyes will continue not to see? How many ears will continue not to hear? Blind guides still all around. False teachers everywhere.

They know not what they do, and still You patiently wait for them too?!

Covenant reality through Christ.

Search me, God, and know me. You see me. Everything from when I sit to when I rise. Not a place I can go that you aren’t there. Not a place anyone can go, because there is nothing we can hide.

How can anyone deny?

Lying to ourselves, because facing what we do, without knowing You, without knowing we are known by you, brings shame and condemnation from the enemy of our souls. An enemy who doesn’t want any of us to know how wanted we are in Your eyes. The devil is a liar. Theif of joy. Deciever of value. Destroyer of healthy relationships with one another. Our identities under attack every moment.

Not today Satan! This body is more than flesh and bone, and you’re already overthrown!

Do we really not know?

We are treasures in jars of clay! We are more precious than rubies! We are greater than the birds of the air and the fish of the sea and every animal on earth. We were given the authority to call them by name as You call us by name, O Lord!

God, YOUR ways are higher and YOUR thoughts above my own. YOU are the only Way, the Truth, the Life. Jesus, Son of God, Son of Man, who took my burdens and left me daughter of the King. How can that be!? I look to You and here I sit, fully loved and fully known. Not a place my spirit can go where you have not been. Not a place to run where You won’t search me down and find me.

You leave the ninety-nine for the one every day. Is today the day for another to turn and come home? Please God, yes!

Your mercies are new every morning. So faithful You are to a faithless people. How numerous are your thoughts, how large the sum. I cannot count them.

And you don’t expect me to.

O, Search me God, and know. See if there is any hurtful offense within me and root out what lies were planted; whatever lies I have believed from this world. Prune the vine of my heart, renew my mind and let love and faithfulness never leave me. Write Your Word on my heart. Make me a fruitful steward of good as You are good. As You work things out for good, and for the good of those who love You. We are part of Your covenant agreement to never leave us or forsake us. To bring us home where You will walk with us in the cool of the day once again.

We are wanted. Fearfully and wonderfully made.

O, search us God, and know. Lead us in Your way that is everlasting.

O, search me God, and know.

**This is a bit of a spoken-word poetry that I decided to write down as it came to me. A combination of thought and scripture revelations. I will return to this post and add all the scripture references…from Genesis to Psalms to the New Testament. God is so good and His intentions for us are and have always been good. We are loved.